How do I get myself out of my funky mood
Starting in October my life has been on a down hill slide. My sister and soulmate had a heart attack. I went to Nashville and stayed with her for over a month. 6 days after I left she suddenly died. Her sister in law had come to stay with her before I left. I can't imagine going through life without my sister. I have 2 others one of which doesn't want to ever talk or see me again. The other is ok and we went to Houston together to try and help her daughter that is in a horrible mess since the hurricane went through a few years ago. Her insurance refused to pay out for damages and her beautiful house is falling apart. Full of mold and she has gone back on drugs to help get her through the nightmare she is living in. Everything was in her ex-husband's name so she can't do anything without his help. He returned to Tokyo just before their big earthquake/tsunami happened. He's returned several times but won't take care of anything. He claims she should deal with it but he won't give her a power of attorney to do so. After a week down in Houston we gave up and came home. I am trying to get her to register with habitat for humanity as the only way I know that she can get the house fixed. Anyway we've been dealing with a lot the last few years and haven't had a vacation in more than 5 years. My husband has booked us a week at a resort in March. Decided we needed some time away by ourselves. I need to go back to Nashville to help my nephew's sort through the stuff and get my sister's house ready to sell. One of them is having his own health problems right now so not sure when we will go back to deal with the house. Just trying to pull myself back up and get me going again. Our finances are still in the sewer. having my SS cut in half without warning really messed me up. Helping most of our kids survive is keeping us on the edge. Our oldest has a master degree and is pushing carts at Walmart. He was a programmer and all those jobs are going overseas or they are importing programmers from Russia or India and putting them in houses that they all share and deducting their living expenses and paying them next to nothing. Our family is doing worse not better. Trump is destroying jobs in Missouri not creating them. My husband is thinking of selling the rest of the farm and moving to another country. I really need a way to improve my mindset. I've never fallen so low before and don't know what to do to improve my mindset. Any advice is welcome.